Dearest Mary Margaret,
I am getting ready to drive down to Virginia for your Baptism. I was thinking about what I want to say to you on this occasion, and I realized I had a LOT to say. I hopefully will be keeping this blog consistently so that I can share it with you when you are older. Assuming, of course, that blogs are still a thing when you're older. Things change so fast in this world.
I find it kind of funny, the timing of being asked to be your godmother, because it came at a time when I felt very far away from God. I have not been able to trust Him, and it has brought on great anxiety and sadness for me. You will find that sometimes, you will be hit with times of doubt where you question even the most basic things you thought you knew. Who is God? Does he love me? What exactly does he expect of me? I am a student of theology--it is very humbling to me that I have been brought to a realization of how little I actually know and love God.
I guess, though, that such a humbling should be expected, and even welcomed. St. Augustine of Hippo and St. Thomas Aquinas knew well that the knowledge that we have of God is infinitesimal compared to what He is in reality. And if these guys said it, who am I to think that I should know any better than they?
I have written you a letter that I will present to you on Saturday. I will also post that letter here, so that it is here for the future. As I said, dear one, the future will hold many changes, some wonderful, some devastating. I cannot even guarantee that I will be around--it is entirely possible that I could die tomorrow, in which case I would spend all my time in Purgatory praying that you and I would see God face to face together. What is constant is God and His Love for you, no matter what you do. God loves you for who you are right now, and always. I love you too, Mary, and I shall be praying fervently for you in the days to come.
Christ's peace,
Your Godmother
